Yes
I'm hurt and you wonder why,
Could
be all that pain you tried to hide;
Telling
me it would all be OK,
Muffling
me and taking my breath away.
I've
had time to heal and cover over the sting,
I've
had time to rethink everything;
To
come to terms with all you hid,
To
come to terms with everything that we did.
There
was me your little wiping boy,
I
got wiped straight out of my joy;
I
cried dry tears right into my teeth,
And
later used it as the weaponry of defeat.
Your
tore me down and caused me to fade from day,
I
went ahead and let it all go your way;
You
said you loved me with lips so cold,
I
chilled beneath the covers that I no longer hold.
Torn
and sold and made a bore,
Hurt,
scorned, burned and beaten,
I've
since had time to settle for a little more,
To
see life with a heart that has sweetened.
I
was hurt, and I have fallen,
But
the serenity here is solemn,
You
thought you were more and you felt you were grand;
But
now this big wiped boy is the only thing that you want to have.
You
think you'll have me now,
this
new gift so sweet,
This
perfect boy who anyone would want to keep,
so
total and complete.
The
way I see life is now so clear, beautiful, and purified,
I
danced with hell and have already been petrified;
Death
has no hold on me any longer,
I
was weak but now infinitely stronger
But
now you can't have the gifts which you once sold,
This
sacred Serenity and Joy that I now hold;
You
can't tare it all away again,
Your
going to have to live with all your sin.
I
gave you the chance,
and
waited for you to change;
I
gave you the chance,
but
you just bickered over age.
Now
I'm the one with all the cards of life,
I
live for myself and not for you fools,
I've
already felt enough of your precious strife,
The
sacred loves of Happiness are henceforth my jewels.